Late again

My Computer’s Empty

My computer’s empty, no data inside

But I’m still tryin’ though the power has died.

It seems too early to admit defeat

There’s still a target that I must meet.

It's  much too soon to call it quits

But I must confess to “lazy” fits.

I have been told that it’s “S.A.D.” disease

I’d love to claim it but it’s just a tease.

May as well call it by its proper name

And put it in a “genteel” frame.

 To camouflage it might be unfair

It might just give it a haughty air.

So I’ve just been groping for lame excuses

Some slick manoeuvres or deceptive ruses.

But my stalling tactics have reached an end

All those impediments I must suspend.

I must face the fact that I am failing

Those procrastinations may be curtailing. 

Just vain attempts to distract, disguise

Diminishing abilities to just organise.

I miss that drive and that motivation

That thrust for a goal with no reservation

That focus on purpose with optimistic direction

With keen intent and decisive action.

So no more stalling and no more defences

I’m through with all the false pretences

I’ll put the blame where it should be

And drop that blame squarely on ME!  

Lessons Learned

Goal Accomplished

A goal accomplished, a conquest made

An angst defeated, a vanquish stayed

It took forever, to get it done

To learn this lesson, that was no fun

I’ll make my next choice with more precision

I’ll be more diligent with my decision.

There are some subjects not meant to mine

To just ignore them would be just fine.

I knew I’d bit off, more than I could chew

But once I started, ‘twas  just “follow through”.

So I’m smarter now than I was back then

And I’ll be more careful when I plan

My next project, my next venture

So it will be a “fun” adventure!

Sochi Olympics

Well Earned Success

Finally I can post this.  I had posted it before but then I realized Sochi was still in the limelight with the paralympics - those undauntable  super-achievers  that, in the face of all odds stacked against them, they just refused to roll over and give up!!!!  All participants of all the Sochi games deserve our utmost respect and admiration! 

Below is my original post:

Now that the Sochi Olympics are safely over and all the athletes are home free and in their own beds,  I feel I can finally, and enthusiastically, congratulate all the hard working participants  on  their well-deserved successes, whether they came home with, or without, medals. Their very courage to aspire to compete in those games was worthy of great admiration.  In fact, just going out there to compete in the first place, was an admirable feat, given the much publicized  predictions of eminent catastrophic tragedies awaiting them there.

I don't know if there were others that felt like I did, like I was holding my breath, fearing for their safety.  I was almost afraid to watch the broadcasts lest I should see some traumatic atrocity or disaster that I would have trouble forgetting.  In fact, until everyone was safely home, I dared not talk about it. Finally, I feel I can relax and express my relief.

Now basking in the glow of success for all the athletes and  for Russia itself in averting any possibility of disaster,  I have to offer a congratulatory salute to  Russia, to its security, to the Olympic athletes and to all the people who braved the odds to attend the spectacular event.  

Kudos to you all!!!!!!!!

The Waiting Game

A Holding Pattern

I’m in a holding pattern

Can’t move forth cause I’m holding on

Wishing for a happy ending

Hoping for this phenomenon.

I hold my breath as I wait and wonder

As I watch with baited breath

For that day of peace, serenity

Engaging harmony in silhouette.

Should we ever know the pleasure

Of a loving peaceful world

All its peoples, all its problems

All in unity and wisdom swirled.

But alas, the dream seems futile

As we strive to just maintain

A semblance of a truce untethered

By ideologies held in disdain!

Unbridled Courage of Paralympics

Paralympic Athletes

In the face of all adversities

In the fight against all odds

They just achieve successes

That our whole world applauds.

They dare to push their limits

They just refuse to quit

They have to strive much harder

To failure – they won’t submit.

Their courage and their stamina

To all, are a shining beacon

They conquer every hardship

And never succumb or weaken.

They show us how to master

And to fortify resolve

To strengthen all ambition

That apprehension could dissolve.

But determination and great courage

And fortitude and grit

Bring triumph and validation

And declare them all as “FIT”!

Food For Thought

1   Notable Quotations

I     I copied this from the Ethelbert Echo, a small town newspaper from my old home town in Manitoba. I thought these were neat gems of wisdom and I wanted to share them with you. 

1.   Accept the fact that some days you’re the pigeon, and some days you’re the statue.
2.  Always keep your words soft and sweet, in case you might have to eat them.
3.  Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it.
4.  Drive carefully.  It is not only cars that can be recalled by their Maker.
5.  If you can’t be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.
6.  If you lend somebody $20  and you never see them again, it was probably worth it.
7. It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others.
8. Never put both feet in your mouth because then you won’t have a leg to stand on.
9. When everyone is coming against you, you’re probably in the wrong lane.
10. Some mistakes are too much fun to make only once.
11. The really happy person is one enjoys the scenery on a detour.
12. We can learn alot from crayons.  Some are sharp, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors, but they all live in the same box.

Fear: A Debilitating Enemy

 Demons  On The March

Seems my (insecurity) demons are on the march again. Ever since I was a kid,  whenever I had a problem that intimidated me, the issue would always manifest itself in bad dreams about savage bull(s) that would be charging after me.  My only means of escape was waking up - often in terror and a cold sweat!

Then somebody told me that the bulls were actually just "symbols" of my fear of some kind of authority, (possibly an "authority figure") that was intimidating me. The only way to rid myself of the bad dreams was to face my fear (tormentor) and thus vanquish those demons.

I had actually fought back (and won) once and the savage beasts  had disappeared from my dreamworld for a number of years.

Well the demons are back!  I know what the issue is that is intimidating me now, but I don't know how to fight back against this one. I know I have some options  but they all require drastic measures and I don't know if I am up to that kind of battle at this stage of my life. I know I can postpone the issue for a while but I cannot do so indefinitely.  One way or another, I have to defeat this demon of fear. I know I have to "bite the bullet",  but my "teeth" are not what they used to be.  I desperately require a major dose of unbridled courage here.

Anyone have any to spare out there?